Originally Answered: I'm afraid that i'm addicted to cutting?
I know what you mean.
I usually cut at around night time... sometimes right before I sleep.
And I feel GREAT!
Then the next day, I wake up, I go to the bathroom, brush my teeth.
Just my normal routine.
Then all of a sudden I see cuts on my arm and I remember that I cut the night before and I just feel like throwing up! haha it's disgusting.
I love the cuts at the time that I cut, but I always hate them the next day. Then the day after that I stop hating them and I'm kind of happy that I did it. Then once the scabs go away and they're scars, I feel sooooo good. I look at my scars as battle scars.
I don't know why, I'm kind of bipolar about self harm cuts, I guess.
The best thing to do is:
o Make Play-Doh or other clay models and cut or smash them.
o Throw ice into the bathtub or against a brick wall hard enough to shatter it.
o Break sticks.
o Put a finger into a frozen food (like ice cream) for a minute.
o Bite into a hot pepper or chew a piece of ginger root.
o Pick a subject and research it on the web.
o Draw on yourself with a red felt-tip pen.
o Try counting down slowly from 10 to 1
o Put a rubber band around your wrist and flick it lightly.
o Take a shower.
o Ride a bike fast and far.
I'm not going to tell you to get "help", because ultimately it's your choice.
What I want you to know is that this "help" truly does help!! :)
Just thinking of the reasons as to why you self harm really helped me consider stopping.
Like I usually cut every time I got even a little stressed. (Like if I feared I would do bad on an essay, if my sister said something mean but never really meant it, if I didn't score in soccer PRACTICE, etc.)
Then after that I realized that I didn't ALWAYS self harm every time I got angry at myself.
I tried remembering how I used to cope before I started self harming.
After that, I realized, I CAN stop.