This is the truth, and I need desperate help?

This is the truth, and I need desperate help? Topic: Reading and writing skills for adults
July 19, 2019 / By Alyssia
Question: Im 14, almost 15. I am adopted since about 9 - 10, fostered since 2 and a half. I'll be 15 in september. Birthday 22nd of september, 1995. So yeah, I'm young. I see my biological mother usually 3 times a year, one christmas, easter, and my birthday. I am adopted with a twin. I also live with others, one a 10 year old girl, adopted, and a 15 year old boy, fostered long term. Here's the thing: I have made a **** load of lies about myself to everyone. The real stuff: I feel like I am being watched by people all the time, sometimes I think its Friends. My biological father is schizophrenic. I have constant thoughts of being a hero to people in some sort of way. I am not social, keeping to myself most of the time except in school. I have always felt disconnected from everyone else. I have been faking symptoms of disorders and such for more then a year, with some success. And this does make me sad. But I just cant stop it. I have Autism, dyslexia (witch I have overcame), and asthma (witch I have very little problems with). The fake stuff...: I have studied to much extent various disorders. These are: Schizophrenia (I am telling my psychologist that I hallucinate, that I see things and hear voices that are not there). DID (I am faking memory loss and a change in personality). I have looked into these thing very much and I am even on Resperdone. I faked seizures before, witch no one knows, or even thinks I faked. I have faked every aparent asthma attack for 5 years straight. I have also faked panic attacks. I am a compulsive lier. I just cant stop it. I feel so sorry, but no one even knows about it. I basicaly feel next to no emotion and making bonds for me is extremely hard, but I do have good freinds. Im bone lazy. For years I have been manipulating people, both with the faked symptoms and other things. I am just so sick of it, I want just stop it, but I need help. The problem is everyone already thinks their helping me and they have alot of trust in me. I am a firm atheist, and I have my reasons why. I honestly respect your religious beliefes whatever they may be. I am honestly, mostly a pacifist. But I would use violence only if absolutely nesscessary (witch since Im 6 ft 2.5 inches, has pretty much never happened). I have a very high intelligence compared to my age group, but with everything thats going on I even fake my intellect. I realy want help with this. A confession would just be so hard, maybe to hard. I want a helpfull answer, not just one yelling at me or getting angry at me, though I know I deserve punishment. I have ambitions of being a doctor and have never broken the law. I dont do drugs of any kind. Except the prescricptions. Judy and charlie, Judy and Charlie, I expected anger, but realy thanks. Now, I just need to get the curage. Also, I love my adopted parents more then biological parents. There has been alot of "complications" involving drugs with my biological family.
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Vincent Vincent | 2 days ago
I think your smoking too much weed and need attn that your not getting from mom and dad make some good friends
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Vincent Originally Answered: If Xians have the "truth" then why do some have to distort science and history to defend the "truth"?
This is probably going to make a few people mad, but I don't care. The same can be said for every religion, they use fear tactics to get people to follow their views. Most of my experience with religion has shown that even the people in the more respectable church positions have absolutely no knowledge of geopolitical history, nor do they have any idea of the historical time line of their religion. They will most always defend themselves when you question their faith, which is a clear sign of insecurity by the way. If you start to ask questions that they don't know the answer to, the answer you get in return is "Because GOD made it that way." (Sorry buddy, but that is not an answer.) Here is another thing that burns me, have you ever asked a supposed church activist or supposed "hardcore" christian to prove the existence of God, and Christ to you? First off they can't, faith and religion are both opinion based systems. There is no proof. If they do try to prove it to you, the use nothing but circular logic, they "know" he exists because they "feel" his presence. Last time I checked, when Christians were trying to disprove evolution they expect Scientists to use an infallible form of proof, yet the can "prove" God's existence by using circular logic. Get real people, if you choose to follow something blindly, don't try to pawn off your beliefs on other people. It says in the Bible to not force your religion onto others, a man will always find his own way to Him. I am sick and tired of people using God as a crutch for their own insecurities. Sorry I went off on a tangent there. I like how Thus Saith The Lord tries to hide the fact that "searching for god" means to be ignorant. You tried to hide what you were saying in large words and double talk. At no point is a man-made article of literacy a fact. If I wrote a book saying that Jesus was a psychotic, man raping blasphemer does that make it true? No it does not, stop using written works as fact. Christians like you do that all the time, you say things can't be used as fact to disprove God, yet you come back using the same "facts" and using them as a truth.
Vincent Originally Answered: If Xians have the "truth" then why do some have to distort science and history to defend the "truth"?
1. I am a Christian who believes in the literal word of the Holy Bible. Nowhere does it teach that the earth is 6,000 years old, nor the universe. In fact, Moses and Paul both stated that they were both in the seventh creative rest day. If people would just read chapter 1, they would see that Moses himself said that he was in the seventh day. Ergo - the creative days are eons long. 2. I am a Christian who believes the dinosaurs were long gone by the time man showed up. And the Bible definitely never states that the dinosaurs were here when man was here. 3 & 4, you're very much mistaken on. I was watching a special on the Science Channel last night, wherein a very prominent evolutionary biologist made the statement: No one can prove evolution. She stated that's why she enjoyed looking for the answers. But do not make the mistake that even evolutionists themselves do not believe. I don't believe in the Trinity, and I do study the science of textual criticism. I will quote the paleographical evidence of things like John Rylands and other papyri to back up the Bibles claims. If we're going to throw out the Bible's claims as to who wrote which book, then we also have to throw out Homer and Thucydides. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K2H_r6be8... My question to you, is why are you accusing everyone who claims to be Christian - because of a few, loud, crack pots? Edit: Thumb down if you wish. (I see they are already beginning) But what is those folks logical, non-emotional reply? I see your comment - and I understand that it's only some. But I figure it's best to ignore the lunatics. They are nothing more than a loud minority.
Vincent Originally Answered: If Xians have the "truth" then why do some have to distort science and history to defend the "truth"?
All people with an agenda distort science and history. That is just what people do. For example, you are trying to defame religion and thats fine, but you do so with faulty history and "facts." "These people want to drag us back into the dark ages. It's downright scary." This statement, for example, is a major display of either ignorance, or outdated history. The fact of the matter is, the Dark Ages is no longer a term used by modern historians. It just isn't accurate. The truth is, the Roman Empire, from the death of Marcus Aurilius to it's eventual fall in 410 began to resemble Medieval Europe more than it did the Age of Augustus. We have this image of the Goths, Vandals, Franks, and Saxons as these mindless barbarians who seek only to rape and pillage, but the truth is, they were all quite civilized and "Romanized". Even by the reign of Constantine, a bulk of the Roman army was made up of Gothic mercenaries. Alaric himself, the king who sacked Rome in 410, grew up and was educated in Constantanople in the Eastern Emperor's court. Really, the concept of the "Dark Ages" is really a lie. The period between 410 and, say, 1095 were actually quite advanced. Look at the Churches, palaces, and tombs built in Ravenna, Italy in the 6th century. They are just a beautiful as any Classical Roman or Greek temple. Read some of the works by Venerable Bede, Boethius, Alcuin, or Einhard. They are just as philosophical, just as brilliant, and just as inspiring as Plato or Aristotle. Infact, more so than Aristotle. The truth is, the concept of the "Dark Ages" comes from the 19th century protestant English world view. If you think back to high school history, we all learned this historical narrative. Important people come from the East, and move westward till Civilization finds itself in England. Civilization begins in Babylon, but they are replaced by biblical Israel, then the Greeks come along, the Romans replace them, but the Rome falls. The British protestants saw Rome being replaced by the "darkness" of Catholicism. But, to them, Protestant won the day and Civilization and Glory finally came to the British Empire who exported it all over the world. This is not a historically accurate world view. It is actally garbage. The truth is, the Early Middle Ages (as it is now called) is filled of facinating and very advanced events. For example, we know that in these "Dark Ages" the whole of Europe, North Africa, and the Near East was ruled by two women (Galla Placidia and Pulcheria) who built impressive universities and churches. So it would seem that, you too are misinformed.

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God can break the lying off you if you want to rely on Him. To help yourself, you need to know Jesus Christ, God's Son, who is our bridge to God. God can help you live a better life. You can have a personal relationship with God by saying the prayer below. God is all-knowing, all-powerful, eternal, holy, love. God loves us and sent us His Son, Jesus Christ, so we can go to heaven if we know and follow Him. Forever means without end -- time on and on without death. Forever is what happens after we die. Either we go to heaven and be with God forever, or we go to hell which is very bad and painful forever. The good people who are saved believers in Jesus Christ go to heaven. The bad people go to hell. We need to know and follow God in this world to get to heaven in the next world. We follow God by loving and obeying Him and loving others for Him. Jesus died on the cross to cancel our sins. We need to accept Jesus into our life as our Lord and Savior forever to receive God's blessing and forgiveness plus go to heaven to be with God forever after we die. This is about being a born-again Christian. Faith in God is a gift from God. You can pray for faith in God. Just speak out and ask God for the faith to believe in Him and to follow Him. Some people find faith in God when they realize the beauty in the world is made by God. Evolution can't explain the world's natural beauty, for example, the parks in the world, animals, flowers, peacocks, sunsets, butterflies, rainbows, etc. After you have your faith on, you can pray a sinner's prayer to be a born-again Christian. This prayer is very important and should be said with a sincere heart and faith in God. This is the prayer: "Dear God, I know that I am a sinner and that Jesus Christ is the sacrifice for our sins. I have done the following sins (state these out) and I pray to discontinue these sins. I pray to receive Jesus Christ into my life as my Lord and Savior forever. In Jesus' name, amen." I'm Lutheran and I like the Baptist churches too. You could check out a Christian church youth group to learn about God's will for your life. You can pray to God about your daily life and have a Christian church pray for you.
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Royal Originally Answered: Pilate says to Jesus: What is truth? How do you discern truth?
Jesus answered Pilate, "You say that I am a king. I was born for this, and I came into the world for this: to testify to the truth. Everyone who is committed to the truth listens to my voice." John 18:37 truth is absolute. and the Lord of the word has directed us to the word of the Lord as truth. it doesn't matter what you feel or say, all that matters is what comes out of the mouth of the Lord, the bread by which we live. the Bible is God's very word, and completely the only truth, it stands at the summit surrounded by lies slashing His sword back and forth defending integrity. it is a frightening thing to consider how many people in this world chalk it up as a worthless book. when it is the Book.
Royal Originally Answered: Pilate says to Jesus: What is truth? How do you discern truth?
Pilate was once an advanced guy of the arena and a political candidate in provider to the Roman Empire. I'm fairly detailed that lifestyles had taught him that reality is relative to the stipulations where one lives. He requested on that groundwork.

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